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I’m not much of a cook, in fact…I am not a cook at all. The less time in the kitchen the better!

I am terrible at it and I don’t enjoy it, but today I did some cooking — I made some healthy onion bahjis, I absolutely love them and have been eating them a lot lately, trying to fit them in to my days calorie allowance etc.

The ones I made are 25 calories each and the bought ones are 50 calories each, I halved them, and they taste just as nice if not nicer. Now I can eat twice as many, or just have one as I always have 25 cals to spare on a snack.

I am impressed with myself

Here’s what I realised yesterday, while I was wearing the size 14 pants I’d not been able to get into last month and slipping on the size 14 coat I haven’t worn in many years - who cares if I am not losing pounds at the moment, I am clearly losing inches. I need to be less obsessed with the pounds, I am sure they will start coming off again eventually.

I also have muscles, on my thighs and arms, for the first time in my entire adult life - which would go to further explain the no loss thing I am sure.

I am going to try and stop worrying about it, and just stick with what I am doing knowing that overall I am becoming healthier, and that’s what counts

So, now that my migraine seems to have subsided (touch wood) I am back to working out - I only stopped for 2 weeks, but it’s amazing how out of the loop you get with it, 30 minutes/300 calories is killing me the last few days and usually I’d see that as only a minor workout, that’s about the minimum I ever usually do!

I haven’t been following the zig zag this week though, I have been sticking to around 1300 calories - I just have such a hard time getting my head around eating more, for what seems like just the sake of it. Next week I am going to give 100% to the zig zagging though, calories and amount of exercise, follow it to the letter. If I am still not losing weight after that then I am going to quit the elliptical and do something else instead…maybe an old aerobics video…if I am still not losing weight after that I am going to chop off a limb

Mmmm I just had a pepperoni pizza, that’s the first time in a long time I have had one! I had to attend a funeral today, and I managed to avoid eating at the wake as it was all Italian high calorie food, but it went on a lot longer than I had thought so by the time we got home at around 6pm I was starving and didn’t feel like cooking, so Pizza it was…I might as well have just had something there, there was plenty of pizza.

Still I enjoyed it, as long as I don’t make a habit of it it’s all good

I am going to do some research on ‘Cheat Days’ - I always just thought they were an excuse for people to pig out, I didn’t realise there was some logic to it and it might actually help me out! When I’d hear or see people talking about it, I’d just gloss over and not really pay attention - but for some reason last week I was reading a thread about it over on caloriecount.about.com and realised that the logic is that it gives your metabolism a jolt and keeps it on it’s toes, therefore actually helping you in the long run.

Like I say, I am going to do some proper research into it and see if it really is beneficial, and how exactly you are meant to do the ‘cheating’.

Last night, I was naughty and indulged in some chocolate chip mint ice cream…droooooool. I am very rarely naughty, I have good self control, so on the odd occasion I do treat myself it’s made all the better.

I was literally saying mmmmmming away the whole time I was eating it. There’s still a lot of it left as well, but I won’t be having any more, not until August at the earliest lol

No more weight loss since I got back off holiday, but I am finally back into the swing of things I think - tonight I had what felt like an awesome work out, 400 calories in 40 minutes, sweating like a mad woman - felt great afterwards, don’t you just love it when you get those ones? I generally still hate working out, hate it, but sometimes I get really into it…wish I could have gone on longer but I had places to be! I am still on 1400 calories a day rather than the 1200 I had been on for a year previous to that.

I might be going away again for a few days at the start of next week though, which is a bit of bad timing, but that’s not decided yet - it’s my other halfs birthday so I feel I ought to go with him…but…meh. We’ll see we’ll see.

Hopefully my next entry will include a loss, I did some maths last night and it’s taken me 4 months to lose the last stone…ouch….why can’t it just drop off me like it seems to every one else? lol

So I have been back for 6 days now, and I have only worked out once - ooops. It’s hard getting back into a routine when you have been out of it for two weeks, but in my defense I was really quite unwell for three of those days. Monday - Wednesday I felt just awful, almost ended up taking myself off to A&E - thankfully I feel a lot better since yesterday, but I still don’t know if it’s a good idea to hop on my elliptical…I am itching to, but I’d do anything in the world to avoid feeling that unwell again, ugh.

I have continued to eat an extra 200 calories per day, it’s bloody difficult though - I know it’s only 200 calories but it makes me feel like a pig, I feel like I am constantly eating and trying to ‘up’ them. It’ll be interesting to see what the scale says this Sunday - for once I have no idea what to expect or hope for.

So I weighed myself, I was at 12 stone - I literally jumped up and down, I was expecting to have put on a few lbs minimum…but to put it bluntly, I hadn’t been to the loo for a few days and I was fully clothed and I had just had a big meal - so I suspected I might be even less. I weighed in again this morning, after clearing myself out (ewww, sorry :P), not having any food in my belly and stark naked, 11.12. WOW. I lost 2lb.

Obviously this thrills me, but it also confuses the heck out of me. How can I lose 2lbs when I am not being too careful about what I eat and not working out at all? It only goes to confirm to me what I have long suspected, and that’s that I am doing something wrong, if only I knew what. So I am going to increase my calories by 200 per day and only work out every other day - it’ll be interesting to see how it goes.

And this is a bit disheartening, I went to check my current BMI for updating the stats in my sidebar and I am still 13lbs into the ‘obese’ category - that means I still have to get down to 10.13 before I am classed as just ‘overweight’ - ugh.

I have set my next mini goal as 11.8 as that will be 4 stone lost in total.

So, I am not officially on vacation for 2 weeks. YAY.

As I have said, I am not going to go crazy and use being away as an excuse to pile on a load of weight, but I fully expect to return at least a few lbs heavier - if I can lose nothing for a whole month giving it 100%, it’s not looking good for what will happen in 2 weeks when I am only giving it 75%. I am already looking forward to eating fish and chips by the sea one night, and I don’t feel an ounce of guilt about it

For the first week I am away I will still have internet access, so you never I know I may get the chance to write a quick blog or two, but if not…see you with reports in a few weeks!